Part of Life

"I know life is hard", it has become a cliche because everyone knows that - anyone mature enough. I am still young and naive, but I have grown enough to know that it sure is more than how I think it is. So yeah, I know that life is hard. And in my case, it's a bit worse than the statement, because of being different and as a part of the minority. But it's not all, I don't know how to trust anyone yet. Sometimes, I think I do, but when I think about it, it was more like I just blindly throw information about myself at strangers and feel like I don't know what I have just done.

As you might have known by now, I don't know how to depend on others and life become that much harder to not having anyone to trust and, for instance, tell them stuffs just to relieve yourself from the burden that build up every second. A dark and gloomy pessimistic thoughts would take me to depression easily just as I have already experienced.

I tried hard to be optimistic and sees the light. I thought, "What if I use these downside to teach myself something instead of being so sad and depressed?" And I did. I spend time thinking about it, I watched relevant movies, listened to relevant music and read relevant books. Then I got some ideas that may seems really basic and trivial, but it helps. I'm not going to spoil it for anyone. But I'm going to say that I've learned that you should never let the flame of HOPE be extinguished.

Life as a teenager really is the most troublesome one, but there's also a lot of important things waiting in line to be learnt. I am not a no-one, because I know I can say this with pride. I understood why that girl cut herself with razor blade, because I have those urges and the reason that drive those urges is as painful. I know why most of those victims suicide, because my flame of hope used to flicker to the point where everything no longer matter. I'm glad I survived my teenage years and be able to look back so that I may grow ever stronger and have much more life that I had.

I AM A PROUD SURVIVOR.

Dissidia 012[duodecim]: Final Fantasy (PSP)

“Dissidia 012[duodecim] Final Fantasy" is an action/fighting/RPG game that was created by Square Enix co. Ltd. The game story line involve around the war between the goddess of Harmony, Cosmos, and the god of Discord, Chaos. Each god summon warriors from many different world (of the Final Fantasy Series) to fight for them. The warriors fight for their gods without knowing that they were locked in“endless cycle" of war. However, the secret of the gods broke out to the warriors. Will they be able to stop this “endless cycle", now that they know it? You will be the one who decide the fate of these warriors.

“Dissidia 012[duodecim] Final Fantasy" is the sequel to “Dissidia Final Fantasy". This new title has a great improvement on the“grid of the story mode and makes it more of an action-oriented game. It is more of an update than a new title. They just add some cool characters and an awesome story line. And they improved the fighting system and the“grid as I told you earlier.

I am a huge fan of the Final Fantasy Series. I've played “Final Fantasy I" through “Final Fantasy XII" except “Final Fantasy II, XI, and XIV". And I am currently playing“Final Fantasy XIII" and finished "Final Fantasy XIII-2", I can't wait to play the second sequel of the "Final Fantasy XIII", the "FFXIII-3".

This is the best games ever for me! Why? It has characters from all Final Fantasy series, except the 14^th though. But it got from Final Fantasy I through “Final Fantasy XIII", you can control all except one of them that can be control partially, plus two original characters of this title, in which you can control one. Each of the character have their own unique abilities, characteristic, their unique storyline, and a super awesome final technique that is called “EX Burst". Believe me you will ENJOY it, it is a great game that teach a great moral and things that you can learn from the characters. This is one of the great things about Final Fantasy Series: there's always something good and important for you to learn from. J

Here are the list of characters from this game:

Warrior of Light (Final Fantasy I):

Garland (Final Fantasy I):

Firion (Final Fantasy II):

The Emperor (Final Fantasy II):

Onion Knight/Luneth (Final Fantasy III):

Cloud of Darkness (Final Fantasy III):

Cecil Harvey (Final Fantasy IV):

Golbez (Final Fantasy IV):

Kain Highwind (Final Fantasy IV):

Bartz Klauser (Final Fantasy V):

Exdeath (Final Fantasy V):

Gilgamesh (Final Fantasy V):

Terra Brandford (Final Fantasy VI):

Kefka Palazzo (Final Fantasy VI):

Cloud Strife (Final Fantasy VII):

Sephiroth (Final Fantasy VII):

Tifa Lockhart (Final Fantasy VII):

Aerith Gainsborough (Final Fantasy VII):

Squall Leonhart (Final Fantasy VIII):

Ultimecia (Final Fantasy VIII):

Laguna Loire (Final Fantasy VIII):

Zidane Tribal (Final Fantasy IX):

Kuja (Final Fantasy IX):

Tidus (Final Fantasy X):

Jecht (Final Fantasy X):

Yuna (Final Fantasy X):

Shantotto (Final Fantasy XI):

Prishe (Final Fantasy XI):

Vaan (Final Fantasy XII):

Gabranth (Final Fantasy XII):

Lightning (Final Fantasy XIII):

Chaos (Dissidia):

Cosmos (Dissidia):

Aerith can be controlled partially and Cosmos is the only character that you can't control. As you can see this games was targeted toward male gamer, a little bias isn't it? Don't get me wrong ,though, women can also play this game if you like Action, role-playing game. 

Anyway here's the download link:

http://www.pspmygames.org/viewtopic.php?t=1313

Square Enix really did an awesome job with this game and want the next Dissidia so bad! Right now, I am enjoying the game with the DLC as they character look cooler with different look and attire. In addition, you can also edit the character model yourself, if you have sufficient skill set. And I will direct you to the program that help you extract and insert the character model files and edit to your liking.

Here's the program:
http://skybladecloud.wordpress.com/projects/dissidia-modding-suite/

And here's a preview of an unofficial look of Cloud Strife (edited as Terra from KH:BBS):

Enjoy, until the next release of another Dissidia Title, hopefully!

It would be fun, they say...

I tried online dating...

There is more work need to be done than I thought it would - just for creating account and telling them about me. It was exhausted for me to share information about me, but I have manage to make it to an average level of sharing.

So far NO message and only TWO visits.

I see two people there though - one live very far from me but I know through Youtube and Tumblr and another one look cute and live close. However, the good ol' me was just being good ol' me - couldn't even say "Hi". I always ask myself, why go through all the effort of setting up the account if I'm going to just stare at it for days and don't talk to anyone.

Well, good thing is I'm considering about talking to the two mention above. :D

And at the end of the day, I really don't see any perk for being an introvert at all. I wish I could choose to be an extrovert like I choose yogurt over ice-cream.

RACHEL CROW

Yesterday, it was crazy! Guess who I found from last year US X-Factor? RACHEL CROW!!! I love her so much! She got the look, the personality, and the voice! I spend almost a whole day searching for her performance. She blew me away!

Anyway, I am hooked with her audition song, "Mercy" by Duffy, so much and here it is:

Somehow, I am sad that I am not one of those people who were the first to see her on television! She is awesome. Even though she's only got to the top 5, I know she will be able to achieve great things. Then today, I search more about how she is now and I found her music video and her own VEVO channel on youtube - she must have got taken in by a good recording studio, she's a star after all. 

Here's Her music video, "Mean Girls":

Moreover, she's becoming even more famous and busy with the concert with Big Time Rush, and Cody Simpsons; working with Nickelodeon; and maybe Disney as well. I am so proud of her and how much she grows. Whether people care about this awesome, lovely, and talented girl or not, I am her fan through and through! :D

I LOVE YOU, RACHEL CROW!!!

Music of the day: Listen by Beyonce

Lyric:

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete

Listen to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release

Oh the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own, all 'cause you won't listen

[Chorus]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say what's on my mind
You should have known oh
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened

There was someone here inside
Someone I thought had died
So long ago
Oh I'm screaming out
And my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed aside or turned 
Into your own
All 'cause you won't listen

[Chorus]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say what's on my mind
You should have known oh
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start, but I will complete

OH now I am done believing you
You don't know not what I am feeling
I'm more than what you've made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me

But now I got to find my own 
My Own

Video:

And my favorite Glee version by Sunshine Corazon (Chrice Pempengco):

However, the original is the best, of course! :D

Or so I was inspired to blog...some more...

Today is most definitely not just another typical day I have, in a good way though. I went to Preah Aung Duang Hospital to check on my ear, and, yeah, I do not want to be deaf yet. Everything goes fine and I got some prescription from the doctor. 

Then everything goes as planned, I finally got to watch The Amazing Spider-man at Legend Cinema... alone. It was awesome anyway. The ending is quite different from a few other new film in that after the tradition climax battle, they got to spend about 10 minutes to solve a few other problems. It made me relief that the good guy did get the girl and she didn't misunderstood what he did in the end. I am just glad that it was not depressing.

Life is hard when you come back home and continue to play your Xbox games XD. Today, I complete the Nautilus Chapter in Final Fantasy XIII. It is sad that the video game characters actually remind myself of me. Sazh's kindness. Vannile's cheerfulness and her thoughts just give me dejavus. There is just so much to reminisce and so much to learn. Still, the most important part of all, I got to explore the FFXIII world. Anyway, Vanille was almost reunite with Fang, but the BBQ Chicken arrive. I can't help, but to keep it for tomorrow and enjoy my "hot drum" and "Korean BBQ" with my favorite potato mash.

And so the day end with some "studying" and FB-ing, which lead to http://duckorino.blogspot.com/. I was then inspired to "blog some more". I really want to keep this flame inside me!

WHAT A GREAT WAY TO EXPRESS MY THOUGHTS!

Hello!!!

Hi, Everyone!

It's me, David Muth! An average student in ZU! I'm not really good at anything in particular, but I am just an average jack of all trade! :)

Anyway, this is my first blog ever! Through this blog, you will get to know one side of me, the "entertaining" side. ;)
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