As you might have known by now, I don't know how to depend on others and life become that much harder to not having anyone to trust and, for instance, tell them stuffs just to relieve yourself from the burden that build up every second. A dark and gloomy pessimistic thoughts would take me to depression easily just as I have already experienced.
I tried hard to be optimistic and sees the light. I thought, "What if I use these downside to teach myself something instead of being so sad and depressed?" And I did. I spend time thinking about it, I watched relevant movies, listened to relevant music and read relevant books. Then I got some ideas that may seems really basic and trivial, but it helps. I'm not going to spoil it for anyone. But I'm going to say that I've learned that you should never let the flame of HOPE be extinguished.
Life as a teenager really is the most troublesome one, but there's also a lot of important things waiting in line to be learnt. I am not a no-one, because I know I can say this with pride. I understood why that girl cut herself with razor blade, because I have those urges and the reason that drive those urges is as painful. I know why most of those victims suicide, because my flame of hope used to flicker to the point where everything no longer matter. I'm glad I survived my teenage years and be able to look back so that I may grow ever stronger and have much more life that I had.
I AM A PROUD SURVIVOR.
